My Life

Confessions of a Possible Super Tramp


Note: The following dialogue took place during what should have been a private, soul-bearing moment at The Church of We Love Everybody Who Comes Through Our Door Unless You’ve Done Something Incredibly Annoying. In days of yore, such a conversation would remain confidential and sacrosanct. But let’s get real. We now live in an age where anything you ever do is subject to being enshrined on the Internet until the End of Time. As such, it’s completely acceptable that the unnamed author of this piece should not be held accountable in any way for sharing the sordid details that wouldn’t have been shared if there was any decency left in this country. And here we go…

Brian: “Forgive me Father, for I have thinned.”

Father: “I’m not actually a Father. Here at the Church of Love Everybody Unless They’re Willfully Insipid, we’ve done away with titles. Just call me Fred. And don’t you mean that you have sinned in some way?”

Brian: “Um, no. I mean that I have been a little thin with my blogging efforts lately.”

Fred: “Oh. Well, I must admit that I really don’t know what the hell you’re talking about.”

Brian: “That’s okay. I’ve been hearing that all my life. You get used to confusion when you grow up in Oklahoma.”

Fred: “Oklahoma? Is that still a state?”

Brian: “Well, it is for now, but if they don’t stop that damn fracking, it may not be one for much longer. Anyway, I’ve been contemplating my recent actions, and I’m wondering if maybe I’m being a bit negligent with some of the blogs and bloggers that I encounter.”

Fred: “There you go with that ‘blog’ word again. What is that? Is it like a ‘bog’, where there’s quicksand and people will eventually sink and disappear forever, like the Tea Party?”

Brian: “Oh. That’s actually a pretty good description for some of the sites I’ve visited. But no, a ‘blog’ is a place where someone can share their thoughts and stories about, well, things that are important to them. Or at least that’s how it’s supposed to work. Some folks haven’t gotten the memo on that, confusing ‘thoughts and stories’ with ‘700 pictures of themselves wearing couture and nibbling on sushi’. It can be incredibly annoying. But we really don’t have time for that.”

Fred: “You’re the one doing all the talking, not me.”

Brian: “You’re the one asking all the questions.”

Fred, sighing: “I think I understand why you might need some spiritual guidance.”

Brian: “And what the hell is that supposed to mean?”

Fred: “No need to take offense. It’s just a phrase they teach us to use when we don’t really understand what our parishioners are trying to say but we want to appear empathetic so the offering plate stays full. I’m also resorting to stock dialogue because the conversation seems to be meandering and what we really need right now is some divine literary intervention.”

There was a knock at the confessional door. (Of course, at the Church of All You Need Is Love Except When It Comes to Paying Bills, they no longer use the word “confessional”, opting instead for the more pleasant-sounding phrase of “Tea Time with Jesus”.)

Brian: “Fred, are you expecting someone? Did you double-book again?”

Fred: “Well, I did order pizza, but they usually come to my side of things when they deliver. Perhaps you should answer. If they start asking about search histories on the Internet, I’m not here.”

Brian opened the door and discovered a smartly-dressed woman, beaming cordially as she stood there in her stylish but sensible shoes. “Hello!” she chirped.

“Goodbye,” said Brian, promptly slamming the door.

Fred: “Well, that was rather rude. Here at the Potter’s Barn, we try to be a bit more welcoming than your standard drive-thru.”

Brian: “She was wearing a brooch. I don’t trust people who wear brooches. It’s like they’re desperate for attention. Now, let’s get the focus back on me and my moment of personal crisis.”

There was another knock at the Tea-Time door.

Fred: “I’m assuming that’s for you. Your site appears to be more popular than mine.”

Brian, sighing: “I don’t understand why it’s so hard for me to get some validation around here.” He wrenched the door open again. “What?”

Chirpy was still standing there in her sensible shoes. As she continued to beam effervescently, she reached out and snapped the knob off the door and threw it over her shoulder, with it ricocheting off a statue of Our Lady of Perpetual Anxiety and then sliding across the marble floor to ding against the base of a statue of Our Lady of Random Plot Contrivances. “There. That should prevent you from being an obnoxious little door-slamming twit until I’ve had my say. Hello. My name is Cathi Wellhart, and I’m the Ghost of the Editor You Really Need to Have.”

Brian: “But I really don’t need an-”

Chirpy Cathi: “Yes, you do. While all of the above random rambling does have a certain charm, it reeks quite a bit of ‘not getting to the point’ and I’m here to rectify that situation.”

Brian: “But I’m known for my random rambling. It’s sort of my trademark.”

CC: “Known? By whom? The thousands of people who have not purchased your books? Let me break it down for you, Brian. Nobody wants to read a 500-page phonebook about that time you screamed in Paris. This is the modern age. We need sound bites and brevity or you lose the entire planet.”

Brian: “What’s wrong with taking your time to tell a story?”

CC: “See? You’re doing it again, with the meaningless diversions. I’m here to make a point, and that point is that it’s time for you to make your point instead of going on for page after page without saying anything of substance.”

Brian: “I really don’t care for you right now.”

CC: “Doesn’t matter. I’m a fictional character invented for the sole purpose of moving things along, and I don’t have actual feelings that can be hurt.” She reached over and yanked on a golden tassel, one that had either magically appeared or was there all along and no one noticed because we hadn’t been looking for tassels that could be yanked. The Tea-Time Hut was cleverly whisked away via an ingenious contraption designed by a bored Franciscan monk 500 years ago while he was serving time in a small Italian village with a population of 17, and that included the donkeys. (For those who relish trivia, this same contraption was also used by the producers of Miss Saigon on Broadway for that infamous helicopter scene, although no one bothered to credit the monk or the donkeys.)

Brian was now standing on a stage, facing a large audience that appeared to be either waiting for him to speak or were stunned to find that they were not at the premiere of Miss Saigon at a dinner theater in Phoenix, Arizona. To clarify matters, a podium suddenly rose out of the stage floor right in front of Brian, complete with a microphone and a laser pointer, should one be needed. A low-paid stagehand rushed in from stage left to plunk a bottle of water on the podium before scurrying offstage to go have a cigarette in the back alley, where he would meet a man named Alphonse and they would eventually get married in a charming ceremony in Malaga, Spain.

Brian turned to Chirpy Cathi. “I’m not really sure what I’m supposed to do at this point.”

CC: “Oh, please. This is exactly what you want, an audience full of people who are hanging on your every word. Of course, they might be hanging because they are hoping you can tell them where the exit door is in this dream sequence, but let’s hope for the best. Now, tell these people what you intended to say when you sat down to write this post.”

Brian turned back to the audience. “Okay. Well, um, it’s just that I’ve been feeling a little bit guilty lately about how I might not be the best blog buddy out there. I appreciate everyone who visits and comments on my own blog, I really do. But I know that I’m not the best at getting around to personally thanking everyone when they do so. It’s not that I don’t care, it’s just that there’s only so much time in the day, and when you reach a certain number of followers, it’s very hard to do the right thing.”

CC, whispering: “Dude, this sounds rather self-pitying and it’s probably annoying to other bloggers who are in your same position but don’t whine about it. You need to focus.”

Brian briefly ponders, takes a swig of the lukewarm water, then continues: “I just want to say that blogging has been a hell of a ride, and I can’t even begin to tell you how much it means to me when I see the same people show up every day, actually interested in hearing what I might have to say. Actually, I can tell you what it means. It means everything. And I hope you know that.”

The audience leaps to its feet in thunderous applause.

Sally Field Brian hoists the Oscar over his head. “I can’t deny the fact that you like me. Right now, you like me!”

There was another knock at the Tea-Time door.

Brian opened his eyes.

Scotch the Cat was sitting on his chest, one paw stretched forward and thumping him on the forehead. It was 6am and time for kibble.

Brian: “Damn. So that didn’t really happen?”

Scotch didn’t say anything one way or the other. Because cats are wise that way.


26 replies »

  1. The dream sequence? Really?! 😂 Very funny, loved it, kept my attention the whole way through even though that little orange dot at the top of my screen is trying to get me to see who liked my latest post. I love your meanderings 💜

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  2. Okay, I can’t resist.
    You are in an Irish village and you see the local painter, Paddy, whitewashing the church. He’s doing a fairly good job, but you notice that he’s added some water to the paint. So during the first rainstorm that comes along, most of the paint runs off the church. The next day, Paddy whips round to inspect his work. Suddenly there is a bolt of lightening and a clap of thunder, and a booming voice from above says, ‘Paddy, me boy, repaint, repaint, and thin no more.’
    Seriously, you asked for that.

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    • I suppose I did completely set myself up for that. [Scribbles note to self: “Don’t ever write stories that will allow Peggy to turn them against you. And don’t use thinner when painting churches or the sky will talk. And we’re out of milk.”]

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  3. Nice one, Brian, some of your usual brilliance, not least the Our Lady titles. I get a little overwhelmed from time to time keeping up with all the posts I get via email and reader so carry out the occasional cull. I’m pleased to announce, thanks in no small part to the dream sequence, among other recent highlights, you’ve easily survived the latest 🙂

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  4. Geez, that Cathi can be a real bitch. Editors are like that.
    By the way, the Phoenix showing of Miss Saigon was canceled due to picketing by mad monks and Grand Canyon mules (there were no donkeys). So your appearance was welcome relief and rest assured, you received a warm review in the local paper. They had a picture of you doing your Sally impersonation. It was great. Nice shirt, by the way. You should wear that color more often.
    Loved this, Brian. I really did. It brought a huge goofy grin to my face, just when I needed it most. Thanks for that. And Wellhart has such a nice ring to it. ❤️

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    • I’m thinking that Cathi Wellhart might need to make additional appearances in future larks. She has a certain spicy perkiness that I find endearing. (And for the record, I got the lovely blouse at Kohl’s, and I had enough stacked coupons that they actually had to pay ME to drag the thing out of the store. It’s all in the timing.)

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  5. What? People who follow your blog aren’t the center of your universe? I comment. Sometimes I send email. Not in the interest of a response to prove that I’m still breathing and therefore valuable, but to run my mouth. Like driving stupid in a rented sports car in front of strangers. “Well, there he went. Is he really an asshole of just stupid?” They shrug, I’m sixteen again. It’s not my transmission or tires, it’s the internet. Next.

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    • You do, indeed, send email, one of the rare few who do. And I must apologize once again for my essential delayed/lack of response to your musings. Here’s the thing: You always bring up things that fascinate me in both your comments and your emails, and I often skip over them, not because I don’t want to answer, but because I fully intend (with “intend” being the critical word here) to come back at a later time and give your words their proper due. I eventually make it around to most of the comments; not so much with some of the emails. (As if you aren’t aware of this.) Why am I babbling in this manner. Because it’s Tea Time with Jesus, and I just want to make sure you realize that I do relish our communication. I just need to be better with my end of things. Now, because this is getting way too schmaltzy for either of our tastes, let me balance it out with a question: Who the hell in their right mind would rent a car to you? 😉


      • Before there was an arena in downtown Nashville, there was a very large hole in the ground, surrounded by a fence someone failed to notice. It wasn’t my rental car. I wasn’t driving. Honest.

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  6. I see what you mean. I try solving this matter by getting up at 5 am. The last two hours and a half were spent catching up but I only processed about 1/8 of all the blogs I follow. NOT a chore though, no matter how it sounds.

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    • Oh, I agree completely. It’s very time-intensive trying to get to all the blogs I follow, and I never quite accomplish the mission, but I really enjoy the journey of trying to get there. So every once in a while I try to to do a piece where I thank everyone, even if I haven’t thanked them personally…

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